Let's just get started. I am 37 years old... I think. I am not writer... yes, I am. I am pulled by my past and my future as most people are. I work to stay in the present. There is a sense of calm and peace when I do hit that spot. So, there's actually 3 person within me. I don't see it strange nor should anyone. I am concerned for those who do not have or are aware of the 3 person within them.
The goal is to make the "present" person as the dominant person while still cultivating and keeping the other two in check. The "past" person I would call "Reflection" and the "future" person as "ambition." We don't want "ambition" to run away and be most dominant not "reflection" to keep us stuck in the past. At the same time not having "ambition" around makes a dull person while not spending time with "reflection" keeps us from appreciating the "present" person that we are. We need to reflect on yesterday and what we have learned to help us grow and feel better about today while in the midst of whatever challenges life has presented to us.
Isaiah 28:28 Grain for bread is crushed, Indeed, he does not continue to thresh if forever.
There is no doubt I have been through some tough years the last two years or so. I am looking forward to the New Year. A chance to say; it's a new start. A chance for a fresh start, even if it's just in my head. In my head is really all that matters. I don't exactly how old I am sometime I range between 27-57 years old. I hope next year I will feel more like a 27 year old and have some fun with the situation and conditions we are in.
As I am the grain who has been going through some crushing, I must remain humble and continue to allow myself to go through the changes the maker has intended for me. I can not fight it, it is no use. I must allow myself to leave the planning of the future aside and wait to see what He has in store for me. So, each day I ask; what is store for me today... more crushing, more crushing...when will it be over? No answer. It is over when it is over. I stop asking. Another year... I don't know. I trust in Him and that is enough. Don't wait for the pain to be over. I wait for nothing but to focus on the present and know He is there and that is enough.
Pain is not from God, pain is a reminder that there is a God and he can over any pain.... He will. Don't believe me, see it for yourself. Will it be over? Yes... one day. Does it matter when... it shouldn't. Do I like the crushing.. absolutely not! He crushes the areas that hurts the most, he continues to turn me over and find other areas to crush that I am most vulnerable. Each day is a battle. Each day I get up is a victory. So, let "present" reign but give "reflection" and "ambition' their time. There will be a time for each.
